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Hello, i am late for posting but here i am. No one will ever read this, hence my openness. But before you read the next paragraph, i'll be warning you that some words are triggering for some of you. At last, here is my founding.

I watch a lot of tiktiks, for time killer. I get a few laugh and life goes on. But i came across a video of of someone talking around the topic of drugs addiction. And i heard one sentence that makes total sense to me, and it is really true. It goes something like, "Relapsing is just your addiction becoming your best friend." And at the moment i don't know what to feel. It is true when itry to think about it. So basically when i relapse, this thing just becomes ok, this is fine, one more time please. But that is what makes most of people with addiction relapse. And i think that knowing the answer to my confusion is really cool, it's such relieving.

 I painted today. Everything seems like it wasn't there before but it feels like it was meant to be.

Just a paint of colors blend through the blank piece of canvas, making every detail of a picture, forming an emotion for the artist to relate, and a relief for every eyes that sense it. It is a poem, a canvas of every events our little innocent hearts have ever occurred, or a blank space for our confusing feeling of everything happening at the same time. Sticks and stones may break my bones. But words will forever haunt me.

Sorry for being weird and hard to digest, TLDR; i watched too much tiktik, i painted, it's great, and i missed someone.